A rainbow is a promise of sunshine after rain. Of calm after storms. Of joy after sadness. Of peace after pain. Of love after loss.
~ Unknown
In a recent blog, I said nothing hurts. But this week, I experienced brief transient episodes of emotionally-derived pain in my heart.
It occurred as I listened to the FDA committee approve what I perceive to be an unnecessary treatment for 5-11-year-olds. (Fortunately, as I was finishing this blog, I came across a headline that the province of Ontario will not be mandating this public health measure for school children.)
I felt it again as I witnessed the Toronto Board of Health fail to answer questions from concerned citizens and deliver credible data to justify some of their infection mitigation measures.
The pain repeated when out of curiosity, I looked up a doctor who spoke out against medical tyranny and was shocked to see guns advertised on a Canadian video channel. Although I seek the middle way, extremist platforms have come up to mess with my psyche.
These events provided an opportunity for me to tune into how I embody emotions.
During each painful episode, the realization that I was resisting what is, prompted me to practice mindfulness. I sat with the pain, breathed in and out, visualizing my heart expanding and contracting, surrendering as I thought loving thoughts, and witnessing how letting go, relinquishes what hurts. I felt the pain move through me. Momentarily I felt unconditional love and compassion.
Rather than feeling like I had to do something right away, I allowed myself time to just be, not do. I permitted myself to contemplate a meaningful response.
The structures of the past no longer make sense
Is the universe a friendly place?
~ Albert Einstein
Over the better part of the last two years, our collective programming has been that the universe is no longer safe or friendly. Leaders and Public Health officials have gone to war with a microbe when current science confirms that: It's not the germ. It's the terrain.
Mind creates matter
Rapidly new technology has been put in place to protect us. We have been encouraged to isolate, create barriers for safety, wear masks, physically distance, regard our body as a potential threat to ourselves and others and inject novel substances into our bloodstream with the promise that it will expedite a return to normal.
If population health is the objective, creating policy to promote a healthy ecology will serve us better over the long term. For the most part, the good bugs will keep the bad bugs in check. It's common sense to protect the vulnerable and leave the healthy alone, to empower people with the knowledge to heal themselves rather than create patients for life.
Somehow my inner wisdom now accepts that things had to become this intolerable for the collapse of obsolete structures to occur.
Change of this magnitude can be scary, but I have complete conviction that the best is yet to come.
The silver lining
I see the silver lining more clearly now. I believe the pause in the treadmill of life has helped people re-evaluate what matters most, prioritize the right things, figure out who is trustworthy, reliable and supportive.
Prolonged isolation can be destructive to our well-being. But introspection and self-awareness only become possible when we have time to stop, think, feel and re-evaluate - when we can luxuriate mindfully in our solitude.
Complete censorship is now impossible. Where there is a will to learn more, there is a way without even leaving our homes. The trick is to decipher what is a reliable source. Thankfully, this calamity has given rise to more ethical independent investigative journalism.
Collectively countless good people have awakened to a new possibility and are coordinating an effort to improve universal well-being. Here in Canada some law enforcers are contesting forced coercive medical intervention of Canadians.
I have complete conviction that all will soon be well. There will be sunshine after the rain, peace after the pain and joy after the sadness. A broken heart will heal back better.
Mary,
Want to thank you for your inspiration and compassion.